The thing that is going to change my life

I should receive it at the beginning of next week. I still can’t believe it. I don’t believe until I’ll check my email and will find it there. I was told that it’s ready. It’s just a matter of signatures now. i feel thrilled and worried at the same time. I feel both happy and “sad”. This is going to be a huge change. Driving 100 km everyday, working in a new place, new colleagues etc. No more “working at home”. This is going to be tough because I’ve never had a schedule. I wake up and start working at 6:30 or I wake up, go out for a walk and start working at 10 and then maybe have lunch at 2 and work until 8. Also, I spend a great amount of time with the dog now. This means a lot for me. I like having him around, seeing him running or writing on the couch while I have his head on my legs. I’ll be out from early morning until the evening which sounds really unusual and even weird to me.

On a different note, I’ll be working at a GREAT and important place and I’m looking forward to learn new things, meet new people and yes, I think it’s about time to change my life.

I haven’t told the news at the place where I’m currently working. Only one person knows it for reasons I can’t make explicit here. I’ll tell them when I receive and sign “the thing that is going to change my life”. I don’t expect tears, on the contrary all I’ll get is emotional detachment but I’m ready for that. It’s ok. It has taken me 10 years to understand dynamics and to get to know “someone” so… I know how this is going to end. It’s sad but it’s not my fault. As I said, it’s fine. I know how to deal with it. However, I can’t deny that I’m thinking about it… the words I’m going to use, the tone etc. It’s not an easy task but it would more difficult (unbearable?) to be stuck there for the rest of my life.

I’m going to keep this blog. I want to share what I can share in the next few months. I’ll probably delete my FB and twitter accounts because I want to “disappear” for a while and take my time to adjust without distractions.

Wish me good luck.