I intended to write a draft version of this post and then publish it here but I don’t have the time for it. Please forgive my mistakes, I don’t have the time to check typos, grammar etc.
I woke up this morning with the idea of updating this blog. A lot should be written but I’d limit myself to a couple of things which are important to me.
First and foremost, it’s been a difficult time. My mum, who suffers from a chronic disease, has been unwell. This shouldn’t be surprising given the very nature of her disease, but in fact it was a bit of shock for us because she had been quite well until three-four weeks ago! She had a complete remission for 2 years and then… bum! This caused stress and fears. I’m not going into details here but now things are slightly better. However, she had to go though tests and it seemed like a nightmare. We will see how things develop, we have an appointment with the specialist next week. We are more relaxed now though and I sleep more than a few weeks ago! Understandably, we tend to forget what means to be sick when we’re healthy. We had forgotten for two years and now we have to deal with the reality of things. But I don’t want to make things worse than they are so we will see.
Second, we (my partner and myself) have been dealing with troubles at work. He is still quite disappointed because things turned out to be very different from what we had expected. Long story short: he works a lot (often until 10 p.m.) with very little satisfaction. Of course this has an impact on me, on us. He complains all the time and while on the hand I see the problems and give him my support, on the other I struggle to find happiness in our life. This is a strong statement, I know. I love him so much and I am here to help him going through this tough time but he seems unable to focus on something different from his job. I don’t like this approach. We discussed about it but things haven’t changed. So I am not happy at the moment or I should better write, we are happy but I don’t think complaining on a daily basis is the right path to follow. I think it’s wrong and the whole situation makes me nervous and sometimes even angry at him.
Last but not least, the fridge broke down! We will receive the new refrigerator today. The new one is a Christmas present from my dad. It’s huge, I think, for just two people but I am looking forward receiving it despite we are to spend a few hours cleaning it while I still have to buy Christmas presents!
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