Life, books, kids, dogs and other things

I don’t have time for writing these days. I don’t have time for reading blogs etc. However, I feel an urge this morning, it’s like an “itch” on the tip of my fingers: it’s time to sit down and write, just for a few minutes. Ok, so what’s going on? Lots of things, my lovely readers. I should be careful though, as I’m still waiting for “answers”. I can’t really describe the last few weeks in great details until I receive “something” and then I can give voice to all I have been through. It’s all good, nothing to be concerned about. There are major shifts ahead. Well, there might be major shifts this coming spring. Nope, I am not pregnant. Actually, if I get pregnant now it would be very unfortunate. And you know, what? I don’t care about not having kids. This is something I’ve realized only recently. In the past I thought that life without kids in this big house could have been boring/difficult in the long run. Just the three of us (I’m counting the dog, of course). Now, at almost 39, I’m aware that, for one thing, I’m more patient with dogs than with kids and I’m with no doubts a dog person. I couldn’t live without dogs but I can live without a child. It has taken me quite a while to realize that, mainly because of societal pressure. So, here I am, conscious of my priorities and getting pregnant is NOT on the top of my list, actually, it’s not on the list anymore! And I feel so good because I know that I don’t need that. I have friends who live with this “ghost”: “I’m turning 40 and I don’t have kids”. And so what?! Life is good, even without kids.

Of course pregnancy was not intended to be the topic of this post but I can’t write about the “other thing” so I’m afraid this is all you get this morning. Oh yeah, I should mention that we went to Berlin and we really enjoyed it despite the f**** cold. What a city! I should also mention that I’ve just finished a great book The Circle by D. Eggers and I’ve started another great book Still Alice. They are, in my view, both a must-read for several reasons. I don’t have time now but I’m planning to write short reviews here.

I should get going now as I’m LAAAAATE!

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Today

I just want to collapse on the couch and sleep or read. I feel exhausted. It must be the cold which makes me really hungry and sleepy despite this beautiful sun. It’s chilly but the sun is shining in this part of Italy. So, what’s new? We had a long chat over the weekend and things are much better. We are both tired (mainly because of our respective jobs) and we’re looking forward to the Christmas break even though we don’t have any plan except for visiting his parents. We are going to the mountains for a couple of days, that’s it. I’ll have to work anyway, as I have writing commitments.

So two-three days with his relatives and then I’ll maybe go visiting one of my best friends who lives one hour from here. It’s been a while since we’ve seen each other and I really want to spend one full day with him.

Our dog is really excited today. The gardeners are working outside and he has been running since 9 a.m.!! He is never tired, blessed him. He brings joy and love. I love him so much, it’s even difficult to put it into words.Yesterday he didn’t see me until 7 p.m which is unusual and when I got back he jumped on me with kisses. I know he shouldn’t jump on people but… I can’t deny that I am happy when he greets me like that. The problem is, as you can imagine, that he jumps on everyone.

Anyway, the garden would be sooo empty without him running around, chasing birds etc.